The daddy i knew as a kid was long gone when he found a new wife and a new life. My mother and "father" separated when I was 4 yrs old, and I stayed with my mum. Even tho they wasnt together my dad always took me camping on the summers, I used to spend "Midsommar" at a camping place in a trailer, and I loved it! Then that day when he called me and said "I want you to meet my new girl", It all came crashing down in my head. I was soon forgotten and erased out of hes head. I tried to call him/them several times.. And one time when I was around 13 yrs I called and hes "new" girlfriend picked up, I asked to talk to daddy and she said "NO, I hope youÂ'll get run over by a bus, click". Since that day IÂ've always been scared to call him eventho I want too or wanted too. Since my parents are separated he is paying child support, and when I stayed in school for more years then expected he have to pay eventho im over 18. So 2 days before my 18bday he called me up and said he had gotten some papers about this, he yelled and argued but HELLO! your oldest girl turns 18 in 2 days isnt it time to say happy birthday or apologise for all youÂ've done..no?!..

6months or so back IÂ've turned my sadness into anger and "Idontknowhim", "Idonthaveadad" feeling. I would have wanted a dad to be by my side when i get my first real job, when i get my first serious bf, or when i write a A+ exam in school, It would be a whole lot of diffrent if i had one.

It would take me ages to forgive you daddy... No man will ever put me down and make me sad like you did!