IÂ'm not ready to tell my story. But what I know is, that there is a longing inside of me, a whole that needs to be filled up. It is a secret longing after a meaningful dad-daughter-relation, a longing that hurts.

After I became a mother my need of a father and a grand-father has totally expanded. I know my biological father donÂ't give a shit abour me. I have given him so many chances. I know all this, but why is it so hard for me to accept the situation as it is?

Is there anybody out there, who recognises my feelings and my story?

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Dear Deana,

I think I know the feeling youÂ're talking about. ItÂ's like thereÂ's some part missing inside of you, a big hole where the dad-daughter-relation should have been. It feels like youÂ're carrying a constant sadness with you all the time, a longing for something that most ordinary people have and that youÂ'll never be able to achieve yourself.

At least thatÂ's how it feels for me. I donÂ't share your story, since I know that my father cared for me. But the feelings youÂ're talking about are mutual and regardless if he loved me or not, I still lost him. And I still miss him.

Take care,
Hanna

Oh God! This is me in a nutshell. I know what to expect from my father but still I get disappointed. Every birthday, christmas or whatever. You can read my story under Camilla,30, Göteborg!

Oh god what are these men doing to us?
I can understand that you want to give your child/children a grand-father also.. Must be hard for you explaining why the man is not around!?
Feel free to e-mail anytime, if/when u feel ready to talk!

Hug Bojan