Natalie, 30
Submitted Aug 9, 2006
Have met my father Natalie has met her father
Decided to not stay in contact Natalie decided not to stay in contact with her father
Grew up with, never felt loved Natalie grew up with her father but never felt truly loved
My story is the same as anyone else, but somehow different. Mum and dad had a hard time to accept each other so they had a relation which I would call a back and forward relationship. I still wonder why they even bothered beacause it sure wasn't for my sake.

I never felt his love for me, except when he bought something for me, then he felt that he was the great father! All that lack of interest in his own daughter feels like nothing compared to what he did to me since I was a little girl.

Yes I'm a number of the statistics. Another girl who has been abused sexually by her father. And yes I have talked to a psychiatrist since I was four years old, I even lived at diffrent hospitals for a year when I had reached the bottom.

Today I live my own life no way near him, but still he has this power of me I don't seem to get rid of. I can feel my anger when I'm yelling at my children. No matter what, I'll always have his shadow over me.