I met my biological father for the first time when I was 19 years old.

I grew up with a stepfather from the age of 3. My stepfather started to have problems with alcohol when I was a teenager.

My relationship to him wasn't good from the start and because of his problems it got worse.

My mother and my stepfather divorced then I was 19, and I didn't have any contact with him after that. For some years ago he died in cancer.

My biolocical father and I, have never got to know each other properly. I realized that he also had problems with alcohol and dropped all contact with him. I felt that it was going to be too much for me.

I think that this have affected me to be the  person I am today. I have never been ashamed for not being loved. But I think that it has given me oidipal conflicts that I never have solved.

The lack of a father has given me difficulties to have good relationships to the opposite sex.