So... The man left when i was 16 years old... He broke my heart, and my trust to anyone else... I cant commit when i meet someone..
Since this was a huge twist for me (i both loved him and hated him to death), i decided to live hidden... I couldt be found by regular google searches or anything... I was very afraid of him too....

So a couple of moths ago, people told me they have seen him... Since he moved to another country i got really afraid... So once more i started to pack my things, sold my old appartment and got a new one...

The day before i moved out, someone ringed the bell at the door, I thought it was a friend and there he was... I got a chock.. I hadnt seen him for 6 years...

I got small again.. I was 12 years old again..
I started shivering and shaking and he got angry.. He huged me and i got stiff...He got some coffee and talked to me like nothing had ever happened... He was not intreseted in my life.. Just trying to convince me that he was fucking happy with his new life, that he was healthy and wealthy.. Then he left...
It was like he left me for the second time because i sickely enjoyed his company..
He left again... Ripped out my heart...
Because for i little while i believed that he had changed.. But he hadÂ'nt cause i after that, never heard a sound again.....

I wish he died, that would be my only chance to get some rest because heÂ's haunting me, in my dreams and in my mind..